MONDAY 22 JULY
The symptoms that were on the wane three weeks ago have effectively disappeared (save pee retention which is still in development). That makes me glad.
On the other hand, on June 13 I was walking pretty well, then as often happens that fell to pieces on June 14. There were small rebounds over the next ten days, but the usual restoration hasn’t happened, and in fact movement in general has become much more difficult since then.
The heart centeredness that happened last month has repeated itself since but at shorter durations.
Then about a week ago I was shook awake from an afternoon snooze by a feeling similar to what I imagined a ten thousand watt circuit breaker would make that had been turned off. It left me breathless for several minutes, but there were no changes in symptoms.
Poverty of movement is often severe but can change instantly. My friend has been repeating the phrase “freak thee not out!”
This afternoon I slid into a meditation on the pericardium. It was lovely then suddenly it shut off and I began trembling. This was coupled with a feeling of having entered a forbidden zone. That is the clearest indication I’ve had of a Blocker at play. Gotta work on that.
