Not Over Yet:

I discovered the message at 8:00. “There’s a Spring Walk today in Monterubiaglio. If you want to join us, I’ll pick you up at 9:10, exactly, in Piazza della Repubblica.” From Claudia.

Monterubiaglio is a picture-perfect little town about twenty minutes from here. So far, I’ve been to their Olive Oil Festival and their Harvest Festival. Both were exuberant beyond description. The town’s frantoio (an oil mill) produces wonderfully picante, fresh, full-bodied oil. For the Olive Oil Festival they put up a tent in their yard, put out a spread in their pressing room, added music, and attracted crowds.

The Harvest Festival was held in the piazza. An ideal square for a small Italian town, it is paved in various shades of rose and buff brick and stone, and closed on one end by a castello, also in brick and stone. Mini-piazzas sprout at three of the four corners, one before a lovely (brick) church, while the other two serve as courtyards for houses with verandas. The Harvest Festival featured a pair of open fires with chestnuts a-roasting in large perforated iron pans swinging on chains suspended from tripods, several booths vending fresh sausage you roasted yourself on a stick over other open fires, fresh wine (sparkling, and just beginning to ferment), and a local band named Organicanto that played both traditional and new music.

The band was notable; one of their original pieces would begin, for instance, with a tune from an Umbrian folk tradition, morph to something Latin American, breeze through Elizabethan Celtic, dip into Spain, Morocco, and end up in Sicilia, all without seeming the least bit contrived. It featured flute, standup base, violin, clarinet, harmonica, cornet, cello, concertina, hand drums, various sparkling percussives, and open-throated vocalists. I fell instantly in love.

So, do I want to rush my morning to go on a nature walk with Monterubiagliani? Damn straight.

I arrived in Piazza della Repubblica two minutes early. My friend Svetlana was strolling towards me. She intuits everything and asked where I was going. Morning Italian tried to exit my mouth and failed. She patted me and continued on. Claudia was waiting, and paradoxically I explained to her – in Italian and without effort – that the first conversation of the day is always a disaster.

As we parked near Claudia and Enrico’s house, their sons Andreas and Tobia were playing in the piazza. I greeted, they ignored me. We went upstairs. Enrico appeared to be bumping into walls. I said hello, he ignored me. We gathered the gear required for a nature walk, and trooped downstairs. Simone, who is about twenty-six and has a developmental disorder of some kind, was hanging out with the boys. People passed and were nodded to with grunts and breathy sounds. We hiked to the bar (The Fabulous Las Vegas Bar and Pub, in English, that’s not a translation) in front of which thirty or forty solid citizens had already gathered with their children, some as young as three, ready for an adventure.

I followed the family into the bar, which is indeed, fabulous. We ordered coffee. We drank it. Enrico turns to me as if it was the first time he’s noticed I’m around (and it may have been) says, “Meglio! Depressa domenica,” and grins. I observe a house across the way. The facade is all plaster painted a kind of gray-mauve with a terra cotta plaque of a pharaoh embedded in the wall, above and to the left of the door. The door and an inset porch above the pharaoh are painted in shades of bright blue and green with shots of yellow.

Outside, the group of assembled nature walkers has grown in size. I am introduced to Francesca, who is a naturalist, or at least an expert on wild plants, and who will be guiding this morning’s tour. The word “guide” instantly sets up expectations of order and polite conformity.

About 9:50 we go off downhill. Simone takes one look at the slope and links his arm in mine. Dogs behave as if they’d never seen one another before (or are holding a grudge.) Cars come past, attentions are shouted, the line straggles down to the road to Orvieto, crosses it, and stops (sort of) in an unpaved turnoff from which emerges the old dirt road to an ex-hot springs. Francesca turns to what could be loosely defined as a group and begins to explain what she is going to be pointing out. No conversations are halted for this presentation, no children are silenced or made to pay attention, a portion of the group continues down the road. Francesca is not in the least disturbed or surprised by this, she speaks as if she were in a lecture hall before her rapt students. She concludes and, with no transition whatsoever, follows those ahead of her.

Another woman announces to the moving throng that there are treats waiting at the river. Claudia explains that there was a formal hot spring, now in ruins, at the end of this curving road lined with unpruned umbrella pines, and that people have been discussing its revitalization ever since it closed in the seventies.

Francesca stops, pulls on a few plants, and describes their properties, uses, flavors, and provenance. Whoever’s around listens, smells, tastes, and takes photos. Children collect flowers as she identifies them. The woods seem to spring to life as a result of her awareness.

We approach a steeper path downwards. Simone shouts “help! help!” and links arms with Cinzia on the other side, then with Claudia. We encourage him, and he relaxes.

The group passes the old hot springs. A building with all the marks of the fifties rises high above the road in a series of terraces. It looks, in its Borsch Belt way, as if it were quite elegant of its time. It is in ruins, and ruins fascinate, so all necks become rubber as we go by. Saplings jut from balconies, creepers snake up pillars, wall flowers bloom next to naked windows.

The road becomes a trail. Simone unlinks and relinks with Enrico and another man. Francesca finds wild garlic, camomile, mustard, fennel, and a type of orchid, and shares them with whoever happens to be around. The line of hikers squiggles off in both directions and as far as I can see. A sound track from a Fellini movie plays in my head.

The trail leans steeply downhill and turns into a series of improvised rock steps. Simone returns to Cinzia, then links up with me again. We encourage him down to a stream we have to ford. The woman who announced the waiting goodies lends a hand to all who cross here. Simone is successful, everyone around applauds and calls compliments. He looks at the ground and seems content.

The river is sighted. Andreas and other children shout its name, “La Paglia!” and their walk breaks into a run. The trail emerges directly uphill from a rapids; it’s a lovely coming out of the woods. And there, at the head of the trail as it spills towards the river, is a spread of pastry, juice, water, and pop set up on a picnic table, parts of which look like they, too, were imported. I wonder aloud how they were brought here. “By car, probably,” someone answers. By car? Where’s the road? People shrug and continue on to the water.

Simone, triumphant but fatigued, sits on the bench. Claudia, Cinzia and I flank him by turns. He’s had enough adventure for the moment, so I forgo the river walk and we watch and listen to the water. “How far back to Monterubiaglio?” Simone asks. As far as we’ve come. “Will we be back by two?” We’ll get there when we get there. He nods, thinks, grins.

After everyone has snacked and played and admired, people begin to drift uphill. Simone expresses a little concern about the walk immediately ahead, but is on his feet before it can stop him, and linking arms and holding hands with whomever is available. He skips across the stream like a veteran. I find the crossing easier, too, by his example.

More plants are identified on the climb. Children continue to collect flowers, both in hand and on telefonino. Each flower they collect, they inquire about, and Francesca speaks to them as colleagues.

As we ascend towards Monterubiaglio, she finds a flower that seems to be growing straight out of the earth. She opens her switchblade and cuts the flower open at the base. “A small insect is attracted by the odor that arises from the pollen deep inside the flower. Once the insect enters, the flower closes above the chamber, and the insect is trapped. Happily trapped, however, for it has plenty to eat. As it feasts, the flower wilts and dries, eventually opening cracks in the side of the chamber. The insect, having had its fill, leaves, takes along the pollen that has stuck to it, is attracted to another of the same flower, and the cycle continues. Brilliant symbiosis.” The plant is called Poor Man’s Tapioca because the root was dried, ground, and used to extend flour in times of want.

A young woman finds a wild orchid. She is asked by someone if she’s going to pick it. “No,” she replies, “it’s very rare, and too beautiful to pick.”  Simone has gone up into town on this own.

In Place:

Count those blessings. When I’m ridiculously weary, when my back aches to sit (nothing serious, just tired) when I can barely think, barely move, barely contemplate going out for a walk, barely remember what purpose I think I have in life — perhaps it’s time to write.

I tried working on a play. Maybe I could have continued in my semi-comatose state, sometimes those sessions yield some good that is recognized only the next day. But it didn’t work. I found a scene that needs lots of work, and that’s always positive, but had no energy to improve it. So I thought about reading, but I took all my books to the new place yesterday, so nothing here is anything I’ve begun, and who has the energy for new beginnings?

True, last night sleep came but reluctantly, and this morning nonetheless began early. Maybe that explains the doldrums, the yearning for 10:30 when I can finally justify going to bed.

The day was brisk, both weather and energy. I wrote a proposal this morning, then met with Andrea at 11 on a initiative he and Lucianna and I have begun to work on. Then I had lunch and met Claudia. We moved the chairs and whatnots I bought on Saturday from their temporary storage at Villa Mercede to the new house. Then I met friend Roy who kindly took me down to Scalo to buy a little printer and a few household items.

For housewares we began at a place close to the electronics store; a big box filled with items of antiseptic design at relatively low prices. I mean, it was okay — I bought some nice towels, and inoffensive is better than ugly, but nothing in me stirred. Then we went to Mercatone where Roy said my chances with kitchenware were better. He was right. We ran into a friend of his, a lovely lady from New Zealand married to a Venetian. They’re trying to sell their house near La Badia, and part of their prep is to get rid of stuff. She says she has a whole barn full of housewares, so to come up and take whatever I want. That pepped up the shopping. Roy and I will visit on Friday morning.

But by the time I got home, I was wasted. I decided it must be because I was hungry, so I went for dinner. However, I was out of several things that would make breakfast a tedious affair, so I stopped at the “supermercato” on the way. I bought a bag of heavy stuff — you know, water, juice, aperitif — so I had to return home first. By the time I had unloaded, I was pretty hungry, so I fixed dinner. Then I sat on the sofa and sank into it like a stone.

I put the new chairs in place around a phantom table this afternoon. They’re lovely chairs, but they looked so lonely. Tomorrow, Daniele may take me to fetch the table while we’re fetching tile for what I am told will be an “area pavimentata” not a terrazzo as I have been calling it. In the meantime, the tile-made-to-look-a-little-like-cotto floor in the house clashed with the blue damask upholstery, the kitchenette gave the chairs an incongruous and tepid backdrop, and the two French provincial chairs looked isolated and stranded in the part of the ground floor room that suggests no purpose. Furnishing a small house is a lot like editing an early draft; sometimes the incomprehensible should simply be cut or moved to another location.

I do believe that under it all I’m a little sad to be leaving Orvieto. Last few days have been pretty good language days. Today I felt like a limp pony. The streets worked their magic on me, as they usually do, but I paid them, and the magic, less attention. I want to continue what I’m doing without a break, but that’s not going to happen.

Yesterday at Blue Bar a young Italian musician sat across the table from me and played “Here Comes the Sun” and “Norwegian Wood” on Antonny’s guitar, and sang. He was marvelous. I nearly cried. He said that last year at this time he and his band were touring Los Angeles and he misses it. He asked about me. I told him I’d just taken a house in Orvieto. “Why?” he asked. I like it here. It’s a good place for a writer. “Not for a musician,” he replied. “Too isolated, too few of us, no new blood.”

I walked out wanting to find a way to make Orvieto a spontaneous center for the arts. A place where people just come to because there are other artists here to interact with, and from all over. Because it’s conducive to honesty, finding your place in the cosmos, and facing your own demons. And it’s beautiful, and millions of human souls have left their stamp on that beauty. I wanted to be able to post on Facebook,”Hey everyone, choose any three months out of the year and come live in the Orvieto area. It could be Porano or Baschi, or Fabro. But come here and bring your guitar or viola or saxophone, and make this city sing. I’ll help you find a place to stay.” Would anyone come because I said so? I doubt it. But it’s a nice dream. I even wrote a few friends, asked for advice in how to plant a cultural seed. They had none.

What I realized is that everyone has their own itinerary. The young musician made of L.A. what I made of Firenze forty years ago. That must happen. In the meantime, we embrace our own yearned-for place and struggle with the yearnings that draw us there, or that take us away from life in the moment wherever we are.

Looking back on these months it was not exactly a process of demythification I’ve gone through, because many of the things that held my fascination in Firenze of 1975 are real and still hold it. But what has fallen away is my passive-aggressive relationship with Italian culture. I’ve lived here. I’ve struggled with the language and culture, wanted to be more integrated with both, and have discovered that I can be exactly who I am and enjoy and be enjoyed. I have also learned about the illusive lure of novelty and conversely, the challenge of familiarity. To cleave to the familiar is dulling, but to see through it and find novelty in each moment, is to open your heart to reality. That effort gives novelty real meaning and real benefit. Neither novelty nor familiarity is bad nor good, but life takes more effort than either can passively provide.

So, as I sit on this by now familiar and rather uncomfortable couch and type away at what may be my last post under this rubric, and as my back wishes it were in a tub of hot water or under the magic hands of Michele the shiatsu therapist, I try to see past the heavy body and the confused spirit, to the kindness of today, to the best smile in Orvieto that belongs to a young man at the register in the “supermercato” and who uses it too rarely despite its immediately positive effect on the general welfare, but who used it today while joking with an old friend who is the mother of one of Orvieto’s most beautiful children. Those are the gifts of a day. They are delivered on their own unpredictable schedule, often wrapped in brown paper. They cannot simply be signed for and put on the kitchen table. They need to be anticipated, examined, opened, explored, and enjoyed.

Then for me, they need to be shared. Thanks for reading.